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(Helps if you listen to something like:
[link]While reading)
You told me to 'forget'
'Love it for what it was'
How can you be so cold...
Those once warm, comforting hands have become cold to the touch
My heart gets stabbed every time I hear your voice,
Every time I see your smile it makes my stomach churn
Of coarse I love what we had, but I'm selfish and still want those loving dark eyes to look into my lonely sad blues,
make the ocean in my eyes fill with love once more
I once massaged those aching feelings in your heart with my weak but loving hands,
Doing anything just to see you happy
It hurts when I try to push that fake smile out and no one sees it any longer,
Just a sad person with a fake face
Forced emotions
Something reminds me of you everywhere I go,
I cant just.... FORGET!!
Forgetting would lead my heart to more misery then anything
Don't tell me maybe in the future, don't give me false hope now
I will be chasing dreams forever, not actual things.
So twist your knife deeper, maybe It'll kill that part of my heart so I don't have to worry about love...
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Conventions I am planning(Or trying) to go to:
SacAnime in January,
AOD In San Fran
Fanime
Anime Expo
Yaoi con
but , speaking from experience, you will heal. it might takes years ( i know i did)
but you will, if you loose hope, you loose eveything.
keep you chin up and walk forward, wherever it will lead you, you will find a light in the middle of yor darkness. there is alwais light, alwais.
hugs
Hun, we love you here. May not be the same love you want, but at least people care. I know how that feels, in relation to the poem and such- it's an awful feeling, and I still feel it. I've felt it for almost a year now, and I'm still waiting for some one to come and make it all better, but they only come and make it worse, and it always feels like nothing is worth it...but there's those little things that make your day better. Be careful not to over look them sweetie. *huggles again*
If you ever need to vent drop me a note I'll help the best I can >.< We haven't talked in foreverrrrrr, you probably don't remember me, haha. xD Regardless, I'm here to cry on, kay?
I hope you start feeling better.
*comforts*
Just give it some time... you'll heal *hugs*
We're here for ya Aki-kun!
P.s.- I
I hope, you'll be ok.