So I decided to delete everyone in my block list on FA. I know most of them are there for a reason... but everyone deserves a second chance. I will never delete all those on my block list on DA though, there are too many and I trust way less people on DA(If you feel like you want to be taken off the block list, contact me on my FA, or at my messangers: Akiwarumono on skype, Zerodomon@hotmail.com on MSN). I don't want to dislike anyone on here, there's no reason. Life's too short. Sure, I did some stupid shit in the past, but everyone has been there and done stupid shit. I see people doing what I did years ago and laugh because I was there once. People need to grow the fuck up and move on.
I got offended the other day because someone called me a slut... then I thought about it and agreed with their statement. I am. I am very into being a tease and a exhibitionist. I love attention. Who doesn't? People strive to hard lengths to get attention sometimes.
Right now though, I have no one to take photos of me, and I am living in a small apartment which makes me anxious. I'm not normally claustrophobic... but I have a lot more stuff then I do space... I thought about getting rid of things, but it's not that easy... if I wanted to get rid of something I would have when I moved. I'm taking manager classes to better myself, and I hope to be going to school soon. I want to make something of myself, but life isn't easy and my motivation is low. I'm not in the least impressed with my body and I need to start working out. People tell me I look fine, but I know what I need to fix in order to make me happy.
I need to do medical related things too... like go to a doctor for a check up and to see a dentist. I have terribly weak teeth. I've had like 19 cavities. I brush and brush, but it happens anyways. I had a dream my teeth were falling out actually the other night.. because my teeth hurt. Might be my wisdom teeth. I remember how sad I was in the dream while trying to eat with about 6 teeth left. It makes me think of customers that come into my work with a few teeth. Must be hard.
I also want my own computer to myself... My bf uses my laptop all the time to game... and we fight over it. But in order for that to happen, he needs to call about his bills(Tickets). My mom will get him a laptop and a car if he get that shit figured out... yet he makes no attempt even to call about the bills. and his work cut his hours... he gets about 13 a week. Which is ridiculous. I get around 30-40, but I get paid minimum wage pretty much. and I doubt I will make much more when I am a manager... I know our assistant manager make a little over 9 and he's been working for Taco Bell for about 13 years. Pretty stupid huh? I don't want to be here the rest of my life. I want to make a ton of money... but I also need to figure out a occupation...
I might want to be a Vet.... that would be a lot of money, and I love animals. I also might want to make video games or do something with Graphic design. I could be a bartender on the side while I go to school. My mom has 30+ years experience and the bar she works at loves me and said she could train me. I just haven't had the motivation to get up there. I also wanted to be a hairstylist for a long time... or a tattoo artist/piercer. One day I want to own a club... that would be so fun... that or my own tattoo parlor.
If you've actually read this far, thank you. It proves a little bit that you care... that or you're really bored... or tying to sympathize with me to get in my pants. I have thought of getting a sugar daddy... that'd be nice. He could dress me like his doll and I'd get whatever I wanted.
I did recently do a few things I was trying to accomplish... like I bought a scanner for my art... and I bought some new inking pens. I printed templates for making mandalorian armor and a bunch of tools to make it like a blow torch, work gloves, etc.
I also want to start cosplaying more... I miss it... and ever since all of my outfits got stolen, even the hand made ones, I've felt no desire to buy more. I mean I do... but I don't have the funds for it. And I feel like starting to make fursuits, that would be fun. Maybe I'd be good at it.
Getting a bigger house is a priority though.. I need space for everything. That and maybe getting a cute maid to clean my house since my bf doesn't. Lol.
Thanks for reading. I had a lot to get out.
Listening to: Skrillex
Reading: Darth Bane: Rule of Two
Watching: Sucker Punch
Playing: Pokemon Pearl
Drinking: Vitamin water